Just as kind of an introduction, this is a blog i typed up while i was at the beach and without internet access so its a little old but i couldnt let it go to waste....here goes.....
For the first time in two years I am back in Myrtle Beach…for years my family and I have been coming here and my ritual of walking up to the O.B. Deck ( Observation Deck) making great new friends and having some of the most memorable weeks of my life is just, well you know..its what I do. So after driving myself and my two younger siblings 13 hours to the beach, unfortunately I’m finding myself extremely disappointed. Here’s how its going down….
Some of my oldest, most favorite, places to hang out are still being occupied by people who were my age…two years ago…places where I would sit listening to the waves, watching the stars, and smelling hints of Black and Mild apple cigars are now places only high schoolers hang out. It can be a heart breaking thing to see places that you helped make popular shun you for being too old.
Additionally, for the week we are staying with my aunt and uncle who, to my surprise drink pert-near all the time. For the last two nights I’ve had to try to keep up with them and be a designated driver when I’m just trying to be on vacation.
On a small upside where is a dance club right next to the camp group that we have been going to in the evenings, unfortunately you have to have someone 21 get you in which means I cant get in on my own, but they usually play pretty good music and that’s where everyone my age is hanging out. On the flip side of that though is that I’m spending all of my time at this dance club with my aunts and uncles and my little cousins who shouldn’t even be there. Needless to say I don’t find it entertaining to watch my aunt and uncle get trashed and my little brother walk around being socially awkward.
It may sound like I’m whining but I guess I just need to let off a little steam, all I want to do is have a good time with some people my own age but it’s just not happening….and my little sister always has to be hanging out with me so everyone thinks I’m 15 or 16 years old causing no guys my age to be willing to even consider talking to me and when they do its in that hey-I’m-old-enough-to-be-your-older-brother tone which I have come to hate with a passion then they want to switch gears when they find out that I’m entering my junior year of college. It just makes me want to puke….this is supposed to be my vacation and I’m almost in tears I’m having such a bad time… I cant wait to go back to school in a few weeks, just hang around with some people my age having a good time…
*sigh* well at least I have one cool cousin down here….he’s really mellow and has been some good company off and on….anyways I guess to wrap this I’m just finding this the most awkward time in my life, being over 18 but not quite 21 and looking like a 16 year old makes things complicated but i guess it at least keeps the creepers away for the most part….
Well in comes the aunt and uncle…good night my friends….oh and by the way I just want to let my friends know that I couldn’t have ever wanted you around more than right now…I miss you all so much. :::hugs::
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